Daughter...

[Lucius Malfoy]

Dear Amaranta,

I apologize for hitting you. It was not right of me to leave you bruised because I can not control my emotions. I understand that you feel you need my love and I am sorry that I have not provided it for you in your life. I only ask that you try to understand why I have not shown it to you. It is not because I dislike you or feel you do not deserve it.
Instead it is out of my own inability to show it.
I was repeatedly beaten by my own father as you know and I have never seen what it is like to love a child, I do not know how to express my feelings. I Also served the Dark Lord where your mother was tortured for my failings. She was hurt because the Dark Lord saw my love for her, part of me fears for your safety.

Also. I have had this mask up for too long, I do not know how to get rid of it. You mother met me early on, before I had truly become the monster you know. Screaming and shouting at me will not make me show love for you.
I can try to give you what you need, but emotions do not come easily for me.

Lucius Malfoy

[Lucius Malfoy]

Amaranta,

I joined the Dark Lord, please do not write him name, you know how much I dislike it. I understand that for you it is just another name, but for you it is a reminder of everything we suffered for. Anyway. I joined the Dark Lord because I had no idea what he really meant. To us he wanted to keep bloodlines pure and to keep muggle traditions from infecting our own. I did not want the blood and murder that followed. You could not leave if you wanted to keep your life. You could not challenge anything if you wanted to keep your life.

I don't know what I need for get rid of this mask.
All you can do is to show your love for me, rather than resorting to anger. I know it must be difficult, I understand that, but you have seen my temper. I allow my anger to come before my love because it is easier.
Because it is the Malfoy way.

Lucius Malfoy